have you ever felt so disappointed with someone?
feelings of hurt and betrayal that kept overflowing.
the depth of disappointment & distrust has erased off any good memories.
How is it possible that God call us to love our enemies as ourselves?
its humanly impossible.

Update

It has been madness since school began.
Been rushing here and there till I can't even sit down
at my desk properly to do any thing.
(Right next to me is this huge stack of marking
which i need to finish this weekend *faint*)
My to-do-list has amounted to more than a page.
*....*
But am still beri thankful for God's blessings & favour upon my life.
Though I am faithless, God has been faithful.
All we need to do is to trust in Him.
:)

reflections

I decide to blog a little as i reflect upon 2008. Somehow i feel a little unsure of what 2009 brings.
Is it going to be the same old 2008? or a better 2009? With the news of the depression, maybe 2009 does seem quite un-welcoming. As people age and time catches up, life kinda got quite routine and boring indeed. Relationships become stagnated or sometimes just tumbled down-the-hill. Friendships get diluted as other responsibilities took over. Being a Christian, it has been a constant struggle over having more time, self, money and less God. Probably the only thing that keeps getting bigger and heavier is workload. All these indeed does make me dread the coming of each new year. Despite of all these, i am still thankful towards God for being with me, despite of my weakness and i being the imperfect me. For His constant strength and wisdom at work, His generous love that helps me to love others, His grace that allows me to forgive myself and others, and His providence that overflows each year.

My prayer for 2009:
I pray for a year whereby my relationship with God will GROW and I will love His Word more. A God-loving Heart. For a year whereby my relationships will experience a breakthrough. For a year whereby my friends will all be healthy, joyful in the Lord and experience His abundant favor in their lives, families and work. I pray whereby God will lead me to be a Christ-like example in the classrooms and at work. Especially for GB, that He will continue to impact the lives of the girls and sustain the teachers, officers and volunteers. (We really need a breakthrough!) Pray for His abundant favor at work and also His constant reminder of my purpose at work. Last but not least, for my loved ones to know Him and for those who know Him, to continue this good fight of faith.

"What good is it for a man to gain the whole world, and yet lose or forfeit his very self?"
Luke 9:25

Let's continue to stay God-focused in 2009.